Dreams are made of powerful things!
In silent, lonely evenings
When unhappiness clings,
It shows you the light,
Along with the hope it brings
Dreams are made of powerful things.
When empty mornings
And unrequited love,
Leaves you cold in bed
No warmth to cheer you up;
Blanketing you in safety, some solace it brings
Your dreams are made of powerful things.
When night is at its darkest
And it’s keeps you awake,
Battling your demons
What power it does take!
Chasing away your nightmares and monstrous things…
Your dreams healing you, ARE MADE OF VERY POWERFUL THINGS.
Source: She’s All That
She is a strong,strong woman
She is love come alive. She can take your heart from you. and She can give you a whole new life!
She’s a lovely, lovely woman She can make or break your day. One look into her eyes and I promise you won’t ever look away!
She’s a lonely, lonely woman She takes one step at a time. She then breathes out all her sorrows and Walks all alone over and over again!
She’s the strongest of us all ‘Coz she lives on with her pains. Yes, she wears it as a smile and. Behind red lips and mascaras, hides all her complains!
Yes, she’s a strong strong woman Who lives in each one of us. Reach deep down inside And Don’t let her out of sight!
After getting off the school bus, Rio ran the rest of the distance home as fast as his legs would take him. With his heart in his throat, he walked cautiously towards the kitchen, one step at a time. Then , suddenly he stopped, Mum’s words,
“…now, what did I tell you about ground rules!!! BAG, SHOES, SOCKS… RIGHT WHERE THEY SHOULD BE…” still clear in his memory.
Rio tiptoed back and kept his stuff properly and walked back towards the kitchen.
He paused at the door again,hearing dad’s futile efforts at feeding his younger brother Ringo, a bowlful of lentil soup. His kajoling words, ” just a wee bit more Sonny. And then, we’ll be done!” The subject of dad’s attention was screaming at the top of his lungs, face scarlet from the effort of not wanting to finish the bowl.
A single tear slipped down Rio’s cheek. Gulping the lump at his throat, he sent an unspoken plea in dad’s direction, “You gave him MY nickname!!!… Mum used to call me that! It was my special name”. His spirit launched into a silent rebellion deep inside. But the mind silenced it and went back memory lane.
“Sonny…” Mum’s loving way of making Rio feel special. His special nickname!!
He remembered, the day he came back from school , leaping two stairs at a time to mum n dad’s room. He wanted to surprise mum with his project. He got five stars from Ms Sonia, his social teacher. But he heard some hissing argument between them and stopped dead on his track. He heard dad telling mum, “Rio will NEVER be MINE!!! Why can’t you send him back to the same orphanage you got him from, and take care of the baby growing inside of you? OUR BABY!!!” That was the first time Rio’s heart was broken, with his broken dreams of a happy family.
He needed to escape. Deny it all. He tried hurrying back downstairs but with a loud crash, the object of his pride, the school-project windmill fell on the ground in pieces. Mum came running out of the room. One look at Rio told her all. She gently pulled him to a hug and whispered in his ears, “you are MY son, Sonny. Trust ME”.
He also remembered the day when he went to the hospital to meet his little brother for the very first time. He saw a pink lump of a tiny person in the crib. With fear of uncertainty and a pout that a nine year old adopted kid (who just came to realise he might not be on the list of priorities anymore) asked his mom, “…er…mum… You’d love him more now, won’t you?”
His mother, breathing deep ( Rio did not understand the pain she was trying to mask), gave him a ghost of her old smile and replied, “this is your li’l brother. And I promise you that you’d love him too.” Rio nodded his head in confusion. He didn’t see how.
Ten days later, dad came home with Ringo, Rio’s baby brother. And … behind him… few unfamiliar faces carried mum’s still body. That’s the second time Rio’s life was turned upside down.
“Nnnnoooooooo….Nnnnoooooooo…NNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! Mum! Mummyyyyy!!! MOOOOOM!!! Rio thrashed on the floor next to his mom. He remembered the sleepless nights after that. And empty bedside haunting him with no one to kiss him goodnight.
He blinked furiously and wiped at his tears coming back to present suddenly. With a forced smile, he entered the kitchen and told his father, “Dad, I’m home. Leave it to me. I’ll feed him”.
Rahul looked at him and said, “Wash your hand first.”
Rio took the bowl of soup to feed his kid brother. Ringo giggled at him. With only two front teeth and the rest missing, he uttered in baby babbles,” Lio… lap…”
As Rio picked him up, bit of the lentil soup spluttering out of Ringo’s mouth and soaked the front of Rio’s shirt. His baby brother amused everyone present with a bubble of laughter.
Rio kissed his forehead and whispered, “Yes! I will love you so, soooo… much”.
The grandfather clock on the wall clicked on the cue “tick tock!!”
A whisper, a small touch, a caress of breath… a pleasure of shiver.
I was there, I have seen it all, felt it all, lived all.
Words have lost their meaning; Touch- a habit; and breath deepened to careless selfish snore.
Where are you my midnight’s sun??????
Come, come back to me, come back once more.
There is no other option really. What do you do when you have cried so many tears that even the thought of shedding them afresh is exhausting?
The answer is very simple. You start over. Yes, surprising as it may seem to many (while others might frown upon it by saying its the easy way out) some times, just some of those times it is the only way. I mean, if you have to take a way out, why not the easy way? Its WAY OUT for crying out loud! We are the biggest an meansest critics of self. No one else can say anything to us that could hurt us more than actually believing in those judgemental gits. Trust me on it. I KNOW.
There’s no shame in accepting the fact that it was not enough. Not your fault, nor anyone else’s. It was just not enough. So, yes! Go find your right. Often in yourself than seeking outside. Be your own strength. And one day you will be alright.